The Journal of Daiesthai

._. day of three

2008-01-26T15:16:51Z

> woo --> I got the funding

> semi-woo --> presentation semi-cancelled in that I turned up but he didn't. Postponed till Monday

> total lack of woo --> got a text this evening, bf can't make it down this weekend as he has Monday deadlines of uber-importance ; ; probably means I won't see him now until after I come back from the arctic. That means we'd have had a grand total of 10 weeks apart and that's if he's somehow there to meet me at the airport or something which is doubtful in the extreme. So we're looking at 10+ weeks... and I can barely cope with 3 >_<

Oh and so much for Valentines anything ;'(

better-ish

2008-01-23T17:49:03Z

Well, I talked to him... and he agreed to try harder. I hope it works this time.

I'm terrified about Friday. I have an assignment to do - and I'm not sure what it's on and it's worth half a module - but that's nt what I'm worried about. On Friday the Engineering departent lets me know whether they'll fund my travel expenses to Svalbard. There seems to be a worrying degree of uncertainty - and these kind of things never seem to go my way. Plus the guy who's deciding is the one who tried to convince me not to take the course in the summer - so that's encouraging.

If I don't get it it's yet another thing that lets everybody down. I know I've done everything wrong in exams, I've failed with my family, you know about my boyfriend problems. I've been telling everybody how I'm going to the Arctic - not to mention I was looking forward to it for months. And ofcourse my mum's been telling everybody I've been going to the Arctic - so if I can't go that's another thing for her to be dissapointed/ashamed/embaressed of me for...

An official photographer took pictures of us yesterday - the ones 'going'. It felt weird to be in those pictures not knowing whether I was even going to be going... She was talking about putting it on the news, giving our information to our local newspapers, even the bbc. So it's entirely possible I may be shamed infront of the nation for not having enough money to go on this trip >.<

I was also in a meeting yesterday, discussing my project. The big official 6 month MRes one. And it's bloody scary, requires more maths than I know what to do with and has some scary upcoming deadlines. I'm meant to have the concrete equations for the model by next Friday. Because I still have these deadlines I can't even begin to look into the background until after Friday.

Hopefully my bf's coming on Friday or Saturday or something - but I'm not sure... he probably wont let me know until Friday.

Friday seems to be the day of reckoning now then, really...

._.

2008-01-19T13:28:32Z

It's official. My boyfriend has no interest in me whatsoever.

I'd had a sneaking suspiscion for a while, the way he's been acting, the things he's said, the things he hasn't said. I figured... oki look, you're making a big deal out of this. So I stopped - stopped calling and texting and going on messengers - I stopped reaching out to him. To see if he'd notice. To see if he'd care. But he didnt. There was just silence. And I broke, I rand him... maybe he'd been busy [too busy to text??] or stressed to his eyeballs or something... but no, he was fine. He just wasn't that bothered apparently.

And it's not just that. It's that on top of how he's been treating me for the past few months. It hasn't always been this bad - but it does seem to have taken a major turn for the worst that's for sure...

Never writes (emails, facebook, letters or anything) never replies to texts, never sends texts, never rings. This seems to sum up a total lack of interest in how I am and what I'm doing. Similarly, never checks livejournal. We both have accounts, infact he was the one who reintroduced me. And I've told him I update on here... but I can write this with total confidence knowing he'll never be curious enough about me to check here and read it. (Wouldn't be so bad if he did anything else that showed any interest in how I was/what I was up to/how I was feeling.. but you get the idea right?). If I search him out messenger if I'm lucky if I get three words before he goes off somewhere else for hours - and if I'm really _really_ lucky he might let me know he's going.

Nothing is too much trouble for his hobbies, he spends hours and hours on them, but 5 minutes for a text or a call or an email... I mean God I went to the trouble of sitting in the same place where he was... I figured oki he's too busy - but if I'm right infront of him maybe he'll pay me some attention...right? Yeah right -.-

I should have guessed when he forgot my birthday and never made up for it, when it was only me making a big deal over our anniversaries, only me surprising him with gifts and visits and things. Only me writing the loving texts and emails, me making the effort to be in the places I knew he'd be instead of him trying to find me, only me making the effort to be part of his life and never the other way around... I always figured he was busy - but I guess I should stop making excuses for him. I'm busy too, I have no money either, I have no time... but what little I have I spend on him.

It feels like it's only me making the effort and that's not fair. Hints ofcourse never worked. I've tried talking to him and he always says he'll 'make more of an effort' - the last time he even made it a new years resolution... but less and less comes from those talks. For the first one he did make an effort for a week or so... but it's been less and less each one and for the new years one there's been nothing. He's good at saying 'I love you' but his actions say totally the opposite. And actions speak way WAY louder than words - especially when they're this persistent.

So... it turns out I'm one of those stupid girls in magazines. And God it's so humiliating... to realise you're letting somebody walk all over you like this, to realise you're just letting yourself be used. And I love him... so I let him. But this is really really hurting now. Really hurting. I used to get a text or so a week, maybe he'd call - now I get nothing. I give him all I am, I show him how much I love him all the time... and now I'm just flat ignored.

I guess he's just not that interested.

Which is really awful because I've given up so much for him... and I've given him everything that I am...

Is it so wrong to want to feels special sometimes? To want to feel in love - to want to feel like you actually have a boyfriend... For a text or a call, to be there when you need him, anything that shows you're maybe in the top 5 of his important things? Am I asking to much? I don't know maybe I am.

It turns out he's not different from all those other guys. And the way he's treating me... it's burning away all the love I felt... replacing it with hurt and humiliation.

I'm not sure there'll be anything left soon.

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Hmm

2008-01-11T14:03:17Z

Revision avoidance... on the one side, you're not revising and therefore you don't have to face how little you know, how much you have to learn and therefore get to keep your soul happy.

On the other hand this isn't going to change unless you revise...

dammit lol

Not so good.

2008-01-08T20:36:43Z

Feeling kinda depressed and crappy. Failing degree, no money, flights to cold places to pay for, messing up relationship, wasting time, messing up family stuff and I've nobody to blame but me. Great huh. Not that anybody reads this anyway, but I suppose it's important for posterity. In 20 years I can look back and see how upset I was and yeah... great.

Thurday the somethingth

2007-11-22T14:01:34Z

Hey,

well it's been quite a while since my last confession. Seem to have failed a tad with the whole 'regular updateness' thingy. Well, it's been about a week or something, so relative to like.. the year that passed before I suppose it's an improvement. And I've been unable to access the internet since Friday lol... but yeah. Anyway.

Man typng is annoying. Being female and liking a computer certainly has it's disadvantages... tried growing my nails alittle, and though this makes my hands prettier I now can't type. Well I can I suppose, there are words appearing here and everything... but it's all clicky clacky, and it's not at all comfortable. It's so much.... nicer to type with shorter nails infact... yes brb. *Goes nail scissors hunting*.... omg that's sooo much better! I can type faster than 10 words a minute... and it all flows and.. well yes. Now You Too can share my new joy in typing xD

So what have I been up to? Well um... Ok we're going to have to start with the latest and see how far back I can remember. I have a bad memory. So today... I slept through my lecture. There's been a pattern of 11 o'clock starts and so I assumed todays was also 11 - and yet I was wrong and it was 10. He had told us before about the 10 o'clock thing, but I mentioned about my bad memory right? And I know that technically I could have gone at 11 and just been an hour late. But all my motivation seems to have gone somewhere. Maybe it's sleeping. I mean, technically I guess I only have too lectures a day. But then you must understand that for starters, these are Maths lectures we're talking about. Crazy symbols which go on forever and ever and ever and make nosense at all. Also, it's a morning lecture lasting 3 hours or so and an afternoon lecture which lasts the same. That's 6 hours of mind numbing demoralising incomprehensible arghh. So yeah, meh is the word I'm using here.

See, last monday we started this new module; 'advanced fluid mechanics'. This implies, I feel, that you should have some knowlege of you know, 'basic' fluid mechanics prior to starting on this. But no, I haven't a clue. And, as these modules all seem to do, went from followable on day 1 to insane by day 3. Been trying to do this assignment, and I'm totally stuck. Not unusual I know but yeah. This one, believe it or not, is worth 50% of the module. As in if I fail this assessment I must get 100% in the exam to pass. This is beyond scary.

So, sensible as ever, I went to Leeds over the weekend. An 7 hour train ride from 4am got me to Leeds by 11. There was a 5:30am ish stop off in Bristol Parkway - so that now I can tell you it has officially the COLDEST waiting rooms EVER. I had to be there for an hour and I couldn't feel my toes or fingers when the train came lol. But yes, any FINALLY got to Leeds (woo) and met up with my Tom (double woo). Seeing him seems to be some kind of strange punctuation of light in the darkness of this term. Saying that I've seen him three times in like... 10 weeks or so and all for woefully nothing times. Like a day or so. Something to aim for though lol... like a reward for keeping going or something.

Leeds was extra special though - it being Nick and Chris's 21st birthday and we were all going out to celebrate. Nick being from Durham uni and Chris being from Leeds uni, and Nick being Tom's friend (and housemate). And there was much walking around Leeds with a strange yet awesome German Christmas market thing which made nice pancakes lol. Popped into a Japanese restaurant bar thingy... has some nice buffet things. Had an awesome new drink.. lemon martini - and I wish I could remember what was in it. Not sure whether it'll replace the strawberry margharitta as my fav cocktail, but it's a close call it has to be said.

It honestly was a lovely evening - and totally awesome in that I met up with a friend I haven't seen for about 4 years or something crazy. We were like best friends in first year but then she moved Uni's... and so I totally hadn't put together Leeds + anime = Charlie... it just hadn't occured to me. It's was so totally random. She was in the party group too. Like who could have said 4 years ago... that we'd meet up again because my boyfriend would be childhood friends with two brothers, one here one in Leeds - and the whole anime thing would connect everybody... ok I'm not really explaining this well. Just... go with me, this is quite improbable, totally awesome and brilliant ^^ I believe I became all american high school girly and there was much mutual 'oh my god!' screaming in the middle of a crowded bar >.< xD. I forgot how nice, how random and how innocent firt year has been. I feel so much older now, so much has happened. It was nice to talk to her again. Just a pity Leeds is so far from here, and I'm not likely to be going back soon :(. And let's face it, it's not like people just 'pass through' Swansea is it xD

*sigh*

But yes, awesome ^^

Course, Leeds was followed with a 8 hour bus journey home. It started snowing on the way which was kinda cool, though unfortunatly literally (since I had to wait an hour in the arctic digbeth station). However, there was no snow when I got back to Wales, which is a shame. I think snow is the only thing which can make cold worth it. I am a child of heat, it has to be said, and I am distressed that my radiator fails to recognise this. It used to get so nice a warm in my room, now I can barely notice a temperature shift. I have no idea how to alter heating times or anything, but I feel it should be done, cos damn it's cold now!

Okay, so whatever else I'm going to have to pop off and see if I can grab some notes for what I've just missed. I imagine everybody else will be working on the assignment.. and I would join them if I could, but I'm resigning myself to working through these maths books so I have somewhere to stand. I think only then I'll be able to try tackling the assignment of death, cos right now I am woefully low on mental resources here >.<

I'll talk to you soon x

Sunday - midafternoon - still no progress >.

2007-11-11T16:08:38Z

Hi there livejournal...

what have I been up to today? Well... my plan of going to bed early and starting on this assignment early failed. Went to bed at 1am and got up around 11 >.<

Have been working alittle so far though - except I'm not making _any_ headway at all it seems... rawr :( Right now I'm watching firefly at the same time as doing it. Trying to keep myself sane and also I haven't seen it for aaaages and I forgot how awesome it actually was.

Now, since the purpose of a journal occasionally is to put out personal thoughts and feelings, and because I really do find this writing thing quite cathartic, I'm going to be doing this alot on here. In the possible event that others may be able to read it however - and it being personal stuff, I'm going to play with it alittle ;p So yeah um...

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Man it's been a while...

2007-11-10T12:29:49Z

So it's been like a year or something since I last posted. That's kinda scary. But look - a new look for my live journal page ^^ Isn't it shiny ;p

Sooo... yeah I'll try and post here quite often. And yeah I always say this but it's so worth it. I've just spent ages looking over all my old entries and getting all nostalgic and being slightly worried by my scary quotes (eg, aptly "sometimes even I'm scared of the things I say" xD. It's so nice to look back on it all though ^^.

So... What am I up to now? I'm in Swansea - doing s scary master degree. Infact, true to form, I should be doing an assignment right now. And also, unsuprisingly, I've also lost my bankcard which I should really be looking for right now too - so you know things haven't changed that much.

But anyway, yeah - a surprisingly good degree result in the summer led me to investigate phd possibilities. And there came up this 'Glacial Computer Modeling' phd which seemed to combine my love of climate and computers quite nicely. Theoretically, if I played my cards right, this involves me doing this Masters (in computational mechanics) which teaches me the maths I need to construct computer models - then a 3 year phd constructing computer models about glaciers and how they're changing in response to climatic changes. Awesome ne?

Ne -.- This masters course is turning out to be waaaaaaay over my head. It assumes either a degree in maths or engineering - neither or which I actually have. I mean - the prerequisite things were officially 'A level maths' so feeling slightly miffed right now. This is not to say I'm not trying though - and a lack of internet for the first month meant I now know the library very well and have a whole shelf of scary books with titles like 'Applied numerical Analysis' and 'Finite Element modeling for stress analysis'. Also this, my favorite book title, since the weird format of the words making it look like 'a first Curse in numerical analysis'. This strange wording is quite accurate and therefore is about the only thing to do with that course that could make me smile.

This masters is designed to be uber intensive, with 6 modules taught in 2 week blocks. That means by week two I'd done one module and associated coursework. Or not, as the case may be.

Some lecturers are better than others of course - from the guys who skip steps in equations (because it's obvious, surely) to nice ones who go through things step by step - even if the steps are scary. Well, actually there's only been one of those. Anyway, this ultimately leads to uberscary coursework to uberscary deadlines - and now I have THIS assignment of doom. This wouldn't be so bad - but the lecturer assumes we have a working knowledge of the software MATLAB, and as this particular module is a mixture of third year engineers and us, about half the class does. And half doesn't. This explains, I hope, my severe desire for distraction. If I look at this crazy code any longer my eyes _are_ actually going to fall out. I don't know what it MEANS and I have to modify it somehow to do something I don't understand >.< But hey - it's only 25% of the marks!

Socially I fail, it has to be said. I came here thinking this was going to be like my Durham 4th year. Uber pressure but you know, the free time available to join a society and do nice things in the evenings.... or not.

'Intensive' - the word used in the course description, is no understatement. And the fact that I'm trying to catch up two years of working maths knowledge before I can even attempt to learn what they're trying ot teach me means I really really have no time. I did try to join societies in the first week... but as soon as lectures started I realised I was going to have no evenings - and any time I did have was going to have to be spent on maths >.< I hate maths, by the way.

Most of people on my course are erasimus, the rest being previous Swansea engineers or mature students... and I seem to have fallen in with the mature student people - who are totally lovely and awesome it has to be said. But I only see people when I go to lectures - and it's not like that's the nicest place to be. And this means that even if I did have time in the evenings (and I really really don't) I can't meet up with people. None of them actually live in Swansea for starters ;p So yeah... I have very little social anything. I'm hoping that maybe in the new year - assuming I pass my exams (looking doubtful, and there's no resits!) the taught modules make way for a project. And maybe I'll have some time to do nice things ^^. Alittle more of my _own_ time to play with.

Right now it's very emotionally draining being here... courses start about 9-9:30 and don't really finish to mid afternoon/evening - and we generally always have homework and assignments in for the next day. Total constant pressure coupled with the fact I'm sitting in the lectures with everything going totally over my head, even if I am quick enough to right everything down. Rawr :(

I've pretty much lost track of all my lovely gamesoc people. 3 months without internet meant I lost touch with them from the summer up to now, and I think I've missed the boat on all the skype games they've set up... which is annoying because I miss them all like crazy. Reading through all my notes and journal entries... really makes me wish I was back in Durham with everybody. It was so nice then.... rawr :(

Pretty much the only good thing going on with me right now is my boyfriend. He's totally fantastic ^^. We only really got together after uni ended ironically, but we've gone from strength to strength since then. I think he may be the only light in the middle of this darkness right now ;p We're crazy about each other and it's awesome ^^. Except ofcourse he's up there in Durham, so I only see him for like a day every 3 weeks which is torture >.<

So what am I up to now apart from Swansea and maths? Well, in my weaker moments I play Civ 4 and various ps2 games (naruto ftw ^^). Unfortunately the degree of concentration and time I need to dedicate to software is rarely in my possession, as much as I'd love to play again. Yesterday I gave in since it was Friday evening, and let myself play with photoshop again hence my new shiny signature (above). It's been years since I looked at my pretty flash. Got a shiny new mac os - which is awesome and made me happy. Though my mouse seems to be insane randomly which is really REALLY annoying. I haven't drawn for ages, I haven't even streamed any of the series I'm so woefully behind on. I even managed to get back on my irc again, all of two days ago. I used to live on there last year. Pretty sure I've lost the QC job I worked so hard to get, but I may be starting some awesome editing work so it's not all bad. If only my mind was awake enough to do it justice... I'm so drained atm >.<

Rawr... hmm I don't think I can really put my work off anymore. I may be on later though ;p Cos there's always procrastination to fall back on. And part B of this assignment is on this MATLAB like I said - and there's little chance I can do computer work like that without also playing online, just for the sake of my sanity. Saying that, I have to do part A first....

*insert ominous music of doom here...*

... ofcourse I _do_ need to find my bankcard, so I could waste some more time turning my room upsidedown some more...

EDIT - 14:06

So er... what did I say about procrastination ;p Reading through previous entries I found a mention of the settlers of Catan computer game. Now the board game is addictive. It was my first game at GameSoc and a true Gamesoc tradition, and institution - it has to be said ^^. And in my little nostalgia I went looking. Theres an online version called explorers, with afew twists but it looks almost identical ^^ You can play online with people or bots and well... yeah this isn't good lol xD for those who are interested...

http://games.asobrain.com/

We should meetup and play lol! Though... possibly not now. Dammit I need to work! or find my card T_T

EDIT - 14:22

Woo post ^^ helloooo national express bus card lol - uber money off. So much cheap than trains lol ;p Just takes about 7 hours. saying that - my train journey on saturday takes 7 hours by bus and 7 by train - for the same distance. So hey - whos counting >.< Also got new shiny pendrive of greenness!!!! woo ^^ It was the only available colour... and it gave me 4GB of pendrive for £15 as opposed to the £20-25 odd cost of other places. And yes - for those observant peoples yes I HAVE lost my other pendrive >.< shh ok - so I'm bad with the whole not finding things thing ;p

EDIT- 14:47

Ok... you want irony here.... I found my bankcard! (*woo!*) Do you want to know where?? IN MY FINITE ELEMENTS FOLDER. Yes, if I'd started work two hours ago instead of ransacking my room in searching I would have found my card aaaages ago. Oh sweet irony lol. I mean - that's the reason I didn't _start_ work... heh. Now I have now excuses though xD...

mutter

2007-11-08T00:44:02Z

Edit: as you can tell from the excellent English used to write this note, the beautiful elegant flow of the prose and clear display of concepts - I am completly in the right frame of mind to be dissertation writing...

I needed a book, the celestial alignment is finally correct and dissertation work is happening. Also needed to know why the AGM journals or whatever they're called wont let me access the full journal text even though they should. This has been happening all term - and apparently all the ideal articals I need are printed there - you know how sod's law works ;p

Course, if you cast your mind back to previous notes, I have lost my campus card... so off I go - ITS. Starts raining halfway down the path - and I've left my umbrella out of my bag for the first time in 4 days - days when ironically I've managed to be outside when the rain wasn't. Carry on anyway - alittle soggy. Rapidly come to the conclusion my new pretty cords actually attract surrounding water - and have the holding capacity of a small ocean. It's ok though, since the rain soon stops - corresponding to the time I enter the ITS building...

ITS, joyous - 'yes, we'll tell you when it's ready, that'll be a fiver please..' ok fine. Except - the shiny machine's over there looky. And there's nobody heeeere. 'Could be anytime, today, tomorrow - we'll email ya'. Me = sigh, ok - fair enough.. *soggy doom*.

Rain starts agaaaain *drips* *Squelch* Library ..

*zoom round circly door* = small entertainment value ^^ Turns out only campus card gains entry... not even if I have a photo id meal card of Durhamness. Ok... but I can pay off my fines ^^ NOPE - no cards accepted here *sulky squelch* Turns out even if I had my campus card I can't get anything out since fine's over £5 (£6.50 to be precise). I have no change... and no card... and not walking all that way in the raaaain to the dsu to get £1.50 somehow...

*Sulk* *Squelch* *Home*
dammit ... forgot to ask about journal access....
*beep* email...
'you're campus card is ready for collection'

-.-

The Quote Wall in digital form aka 'the crazy things I said'

2007-11-08T00:42:29Z

This is the note of quotes mainly from me and my friends over our past years at uni. Basically it is the digital form of our famous 'Quote Wall'. It will be coninuously updated, obviously, because this year isn't over yet ;p Watch this space ^^

It does _not_ include the previsouly posted GameSoc quotes ^^

Understanding some of these quotes may be heavily dependant on context ;p And yes, I know there's loads but they're all entertaining, - just start reading with a cup of tea and a biscuit to hand or something...

First Year

Jenny: Do you like swimming
Ellie: I sink

Jenny: I have no control over my collapsation

Steve: please stop pressing your testicals on my hand

Jenny: you’re such an alcoholic Kat…
Kat: no I’m not! I just need a drink

Ellie: not only are they poor, but they now believe in God!

Rosie: I think evil things are good in many ways

*From a form to her LEA*
‘What is your reason for not providing us with a national insurance number?’
I do have a national insurance number – I just don’t know what it is. I got sent it when I was 16 but have since lost it. So if you could find out for me what it is that would be cool, love ellie x

Rosie: I really feel like a banana

Charlie: My t-shirt’s shrunk
Ellie: how can you tell?
Charlie: because it used to be bigger

Ellie (in horror): I didn’t watch Neighbours today!
Jenny: it’s Saturday
Ellie: that would be why

Ellie: only a guy would do that
Wesley: what?
Ellie: weird things with fingers

Jenny: *-*
Nicola: what kind of noise is that Jen? It sounds like a slightly injured cat…

Jenny: come on, we need to de-computer my Wesley.. no wait

Kat: I never kill, I only hospitalise

Ellie: I thought Albania was in Africa

Charlie (to her parents at the start of term): go on! Get in the car then! You’ll never get home if you don’t leave

Ellie: do you ever think that in profile I look a bit like the Queen?

Ellie: you wouldn’t be laughing at vegetarians if you were a sheep

Ellie: they _stil_l haven’t provided us with a knob yet?!

Ellie: do you think we should fill up with water now?

Malcolm: Stainboy is my idol

Ellie: you look…..wet

Nicola: can you see my bag? It’s black and vaguely… bag-shaped

Ellie: you strike me as French

Charlie: she has a list the size of… a really big list

Rosie: What?! Is Graham Norton GAY??....REALLY??...what… is that _homosexual_.... but….but he looks like a man…

Ellie *small voice*: …what does the laser do?

Charlie: you can’t marry a guy for the comic value of changing the suffix of your name!

Jenny: my spun has been foilt!

Jenny (about crossing at a green light): my mind was going ‘ruuuuun’
Nicola: and your body was going ‘nooooo’

Jenny: one day I will make a plan that will amaze and astound you…
Nicola: …they already amaze and astound me

Rosie: I like grapes, particularly white grapes
*Jenny holds up a bag of white grapes*
Rosie: of crap, oh wait…

*crash*
Nicola: Jen, are you alright??
Jenny: I need to be less exuberant with my sitting…

Jenny: Tom Cruise… he’s got a big thing about his height

Rosie: I am a horse – I have a long face and a tail… I have a big bottom!

Jenny: I can’t aim
Ellie: I can’t serve
Jenny: together we make…
Ellie: a really _bad_ team

Rosie: I would desperately like to be covered by a sheep

Ellie: you don’t need men for artificial insemination

Ellie: Charlie stole my breasts!

Jenny: hey! This floor has just been ironed!

Ellie *sings*: it’s toilet time!

Ellie: I never realised how difficult it is when you’re trying to compare people to horses and they take it the wrong way…

Malcolm: I did once own a black rubber dress… I only did wear it twice

*silence*
Wesley: Oh, this is the silence bit
*music restarts*
Ellie: no

*reading a passage which was written ‘John the Baptist, imprisoned and wrestling with lingering doubts…*
Jenny: John the Baptists, imprisoned for wrestling in lingerie, doubts…

Wesley: Americans have 27 letters in _their_ alphabet
*counts on fingers*
Wesley: yeah, 27
*counts out loud*
Wesley: oh
Ellie: you didn’t count ‘and’ as a letter did you?
Wesley: hmm, that actually may have been it, yes

Second Year

Rosie: I feel like a puddle
Nicola: you’re sitting on the floor
Kat: yeah, sit on the chair – then you’ll be a trickle
*confused pause*
Kat: you’ll be higher up

Jenny: I would keep talking, but I don’t know anything else

Jenny (about.. I think it was Inca religion): anything that moved had ‘pee’ and was alive

Jenny: face messy-up guy… what’s his name??... oh yeah, Picasso

Jenny: Gravity, the downfall of so many things….

*Rosie lies down*
Rosie: the world looks very different form this angle…
Nicola: and you didn’t notice that in the last 20 years

Kat: I don’t know anything about Muslimism…

Jenny: What’s that Beverly hills Cop thing?
Kat: Beverly hills Cop??
Jenny: that’s it!

Nicola: the section title is larger than the content of it: overview of the regulation of gene expression in eukaryotes + prokaryotes or gene expression in us and bacteria… and occasionally a carrot

Rosie: thankyou Lord, you’re very nice and I’m sorry I insulted you and called you a bastard

*trying to think of ways in which geology/geoscience can be fun/entertaining*
Jenny: can I measure _your_ gravity anomaly…

Kat: Genghis Kahn’s the one I get confused with Ghandi

Jenny: my family regularly pretend to be animals

Kat: hang on, I just need to have a baby

Jenny: sanity is over-rated

Jenny (you know when something reminds you of a song, well Nicola was walking along and said 'slippy' and I replied with...): Slippy the duuutch kangarooooo ^^

Jenny: I am a small green apple

Jenny: no – my lecturer’s great; he takes steroids

*I had a pretty pen, I needed to play with it, this is what was written…*
Once upon a time there was a turnip called Bob. Bob was confused, mainly because he thought he was a carrot. One day, Bob realised he was different from the carrots who lived near to him; he was white. This made him realise that he was infact a turnip and he immediately set off on a journey to discover his turnip heritage.

Ellie (about Nicola): you’re like Uri Gellar… but more attractive

Jenny: it’s not that I have it on repeat, it’s just that when it finishes it starts over… oh heck… that’s repeat isn’t it

*the fire-alarm sounds, 7am*
Kat: there’s a loud noise and I don’t like it and I want it to go away…

Kat: I could tell by the faces of the people around me that I wasn’t singing ‘Heal the World by Michael Jackson’ in my head…

Jenny: crumb… get out of my shirt!

Jenny: the Girls Brigade… is that where they spray water at girls?

*Rosie has just got her first laptop*
Nicola: …all computers have screensavers
Rosie: hmm
Jen: I take it you have an Orlando Bloom screensaver then…
Rosie: No
*confused pause*
Rosie: I was THINKING about having an Orlando Bloom screensaver

Nicola: well, there's different things we all want from a house...
Jenny: well I think the basic principals of walls and ceilings...

Kat: what is is about men in white shirts…
Rosie: what is it about men in general…

Rosie: that’s why I think he needs a tortoise because then he’d have a life
Nicola: no, he’d have a tortoise

Jenny: oh, I can have a puppy ^^ I can paint it green, make it a small pond in the yard and call it a frog!

*at the Cuths Cowboy Bob, after trying several drinks from the bar*
Nicola (about the water): Look, Kat – there – try the white one!
Kat: oooh – the white one’s pretty

*at the same bob – we’re standing quite close together*
Kat (to stranger): hi – have you seen my friends?? Oooh – THERE they are!

Jenny: hey, if you can arrange for a fir blond guy to go see her, can you arrange for one to come see me?

Kat (to Darren): Well… that’s what you get for playing with other people’s toilets, isn’t it

Third Year

Andy: What is there to drink?
Kat: Milk, squash, water…
Andy: what is milk-squash?

Jenny: my inner-guess thingy…intuition

Kat: do you think that he would let me have a creditcard?
Nicola: if he has any sense…
Jenny (pretend-speaking the convo between Kat and Andy): ‘Kat where has all my money gone?’
*tiny voice* ‘what money’
‘my entire fortune’
‘what fortune’
‘Kat, why do you have 5 houses, 20million dresses, 3 pairs of shoes and a sheep…?’
‘the sheep was Jen’s idea…’

*about answering the phone, eventually*
Kat: I was throwing things at it… but then I ran out of things to throw

Jenny (to Nicola): you are making funny mewing noises, did you know?

*During a game of Trivial Pursuit*
Jenny: who said ‘Eh-Oh’ in the Christmas number one?
Kat: Po
Jenny: the answer was ‘Teletubbies’ but it scares me that you know which one…

Jenny (to Kat): because of the nature of the gift, you couldn’t really ask for Michael Vartan as an engagement present

Jenny: two is a lower number than one
*later after re-reading this sentance*
Jenny: but it is… oh

Jenny: so many of my sentences end in ‘oh’ or you two going ‘quote wall!’

Jenny (about Poker): …I’m happy to have mastered basic concepts like ‘bet now’, ‘don’t bet now’ and ‘this is a card’

Jenny (still playing Poker, after making the final bet): ooh now we get to the see-ey cards bit… hang-on now, I have to figure out what I’ve got… *examines cards* …oh

Jenny (about Poker): I can’t trust anyone… only me… and I don’t know what I’m doing!

Jenny: isn’t Gaza in Egypt?

Nicola: what was the Greek for computer?

Nicola: Where have all the Cowboys Gone… Blummin’ Brokeback Mountain!
Jenny: and found eachother… ^^

Jenny (reading Nicolas work): DRG teehee

Jenny: if you lick the table I’ll hurt you
Nicola *licks table*: ooh, this tastes like pencil…

*about the above quote, the word ‘lick’ is circled, because I actually wrote ‘like’ on the paper when I wrote it down. Nicola has then noted ‘I can’t believe you spelt a four letter word WRONG’*

Jenny: It’s like living together and being married…
Nicola: one’s a deadly life of sin and the other’s blessed by God?
Jenny: ok, bad example

Jenny: Carmen… the name embodies men’s greatest loves: cars and themselves

Jenny (to Nicola): you do an excellent ‘startled pufferfish’ expression

Jenny (about SG): I am a True fan! I’m not a sunshine-fan…
Nicola: …she says, sitting in the sunlight

Jenny: I didn’t get up as successfully as I thought…

Jenny *getting foot snagged in wire*: Oh…
Nicola: didn’t you feel the gentle yet insistent tugging?

Jenny: I almost succeed, I just fail…

Nicola (about Jenny): you were dropped on your head as a child weren’t you… no wait…THROWN

Jenny: do I not get half-points?
Nicola: NO! You bought a MAC – fullstop, end of story!

*Nicola got a call from her dad but she was in the shower so I took it. This is me later describing my thought process to Nicola on hearing her get out of the shower*
Jenny: It’s like ‘thought’ Nicola’s got out of the shower ‘bell’s ring’ oooh pretty noise
(I therefore didn’t pass on the message until later in the evening)

Brendon: If you had velcro on the walls you could eat cereal hanging from the ceiling

Jenny (describing that Indiana Jones scene): he said *cwaoh* DEATH – Don’t Call Me Junior

Kat (about cups of tea): do you know which one’s yours?
Nicola (innocently): yes, I T-bagged it

Andy: yeah, it’s a rock, it’s been there along time, leave it alone

Jenny: a bin-bag needs to know who’s in command, and who’s second in command, and who to go to if it needs I.T. support

Jenny: I’ve got brains on the brain, how ironic is that ;p

Jenny: I _so_ should have been an apple

Nicola: you jump worse than a Sim and it’s not just the jump… it’s the associated flailing of limbs

Jenny: I have a whole CD of Andre Baloney…

Nicola: I have a sudden craving for coffee now… I don’t even _like_ coffee

Jenny (aka ‘Javelin Jenny’): I can aim! Just badly…

Jenny *sings*: one lone cucumber sitting on the elf…
*pauses*
Jenny: bet that elf was annoyed…

Jenny: who say what the who??

Nicola: and then I go Jen… whyyy?

Jenny: I’m party aphasic, partly OCD and partly insane

*thud*
Jenny: don’t try yawning when you’re on the edge of you’re bed

- so what are your hopes for the future
Jenny: that it’ll be better

Jenny: these fancy men and their rich cars… no, wait

*playing a game, Kat comes in*
Jenny: so… the answer’s ‘Shaft’
Kat: …dare I ask, what this film’s about??

Jenny *with drama*: The Creature From The Black Baboon

Kat: but I thought Bangladesh was a city in India…

Kat: we’re running out of room on the quote wall…. Jen stop talking

‘Jen has deferior wit’

Nicola: well, you know what they say about dwarves…
Jenny: …tripods??

Jenny: you made me fall over!

Jenny: …that whole physical effort thing

Jenny: Pea! Get out of my blanket!

Jenny: stop writing!

Nicola: what have you done to the tv?
Jenny: I’m trying to un-video it
Nicola: you’ve turned the tv off
Jenny: oooh, On ^^

Jenny: we’re all really crazy – but it’s brilliant

Jenny: what is wrong with me?
Nicola: Jen, don’t leave yourself open like that

Jenny: when he was like “hello, shall I call you back�? I knew he was sucking up ;p

Reasons why Jenny and Nicola should not be left alone together:
∼ StarWars finger-puppet theatre
∼ Arm Swapping
∼ Trying to walk with books on our heads
∼ Pyridoxine poetry
∼ The Bleh-Witch project

Jenny (sadly): my baby is gone… dogs… babies… my Mac…. I shouldn’t have these things... *pause* I can’t believe my Mac EXPLODED

Jenny *looking at the screen on Nicola’s laptop*: ooh looky, my things… oh wait, that’s my pendrive

Nicola *examines the fruit bowl*: well, I think this is ready to be thrown out
Jenny: aww, is it an unhappy kiwi-fruit?
Nicola: …it’s not a kiwi-fruit

Kat: I’ll call you Gertrude
Nicola: Gertrude?
Kat: Oh – Ermintrude, sorry, wrong cow…

Nicola: for a moment I was on the ground with three hands

Nicola: *sneeze*
Jenny: blessyou
Nicola: *sneeze*
Jenny: blessyou
Nicola: *sneeze*
Jenny: blessyou
*pause*
Jenny: are you going to do that again, or can I go upstairs now?

Jenny: my purpose in life is NOT to provide amusement for others!
Nicola: Quote-Wall!
Jenny: …OR to provide words for the QuoteWall

*Jen makes plan*
Nicola: ..yeah that’s a good plan! *means it*
*Jen faints*
[Nicola edit: ofcourse it was about using the microwave]

Kat: I always liked Chekov, because his name sounds like Jerk-Off and I thought that was funny

Kat: So… where exactly is Skippy slippy!

Jenny: so, seriously, if you dislocate your head and look sideways it kinda looks like a decapitated chicken

Jenny: I can’t pick up the box Kat
Nicola: Keep trying Jen, it’s funny

Kat: I’m so glad my bed has wheels

*The following is an msn conversation between Jenny and Kat that Kat later printed off and put on the wall*
Jenny: lol, well you just logged on apparently – so hi ^^ - unless you just came in [the house] without me knowing
Jenny: well, I guess that’s not too much of a far possibility
Jenny: I would say it’s unlikely tho
Jenny: since I just came from downstairs and your room was empty
Jenny: most likely I’m talking to a computer
Jenny: which means I’d better stop really
Jenny: *stops*

Jenny: I could have said that better if there were words in my head – but all there are are little signs saying ‘words woz here’ and ‘gone to lunch’

Jenny: ow! That hurt a lot more than I wanted it to

Kat: I’m going to run to get upstairs quickly! I beat you!!

Jenny: Some strange man has got his arm around my waist…
*it was Nicola*

Nicola: …maybe you should have some water?
Kat: I’ve already had threeeeee *holds up four fingers*

Nicola: …The Pleistocene period
Kat: was that when morph died?

Jenny: there are times when even I’m scared of what I say

Kat: Andy, tell her I’m zooming!

Jenny: It would be ironic if God did an evil laugh

Nicola: and I was like “that’s a silly plan *rewind*�? and I jumped into a blue convertible instead

Jenny *points to two empty peach tins*: that’s all I’ve been eating for the last two days... and I don't like tinned peaches :(

Jenny: handcuffs… they’re used for crime enforcement… no I missed there… that’s crime _reinforcement_… oh

Jenny: stop writing what I say! It’s not my fault!

Nicola: the majority _is_ by you
Jenny: no it’s not… it’s like 60%, 70%...

Jenny: Lex Luthor? Nah, he’s a big sweetie

Nicola (to Jenny): don’t ever ask me to explain your brain

Nicola *reads from a letter*: ..launched Chrissie today. Bit muddy now…
Jenny: ..I’m assuming that Chrissie’s a ship and not some errant neighbour…

Fourth Year

Jenny: I lost my keys
Ellie: I’ve found my keys… they were inside the sofa
Jenny: how?
Ellie: I don’t know, it’s very mysterious

*On ice-cream marketing*
Jenny: ohh I've got one 'lose £2 gain 50lbs'... no wait, that's a _terrible_ marketing strategy!

Jenny: note to self: putting your foot into a puddle when your're only wearing sandles is a _bad_ idea

Ellie: she did a weird thing with being born

Nicola: Jen, you are an anti-dog - I'm trying to train you not to sit on the floor and sit on the furniture!

Jenny (in response to Nicola): things that people commonly go 'ooh' at; chocolate cake, puppies, things in sales.... NOT dissection hits
Nicola: congradulations on making the quote wall in the first 2 minutes of term

Jenny: what was I going to say?
Nicola: how the hell am I supposed to know that

Jenny: Sheppherd and McKay... Yey! Get In ^^ ... well, obviously not literally

Brendan (about Nicola): you're the worlds most complicated person... or just a woman

Nicola: look, there's a class on procrastination
Jenny: I'll go to that... I'll join tomorrow ;p

Ellie: I'm not gullible, just easily led

Nicola: I've just spent £738
Jenny: don't worry - you've just bought the best thing...
Nicola: Sheppherd?
Jenny yes... no wait
*world ends*

*Jenny starts to climb on the radiator*
Nicola: Jen! *Jenny pauses* I should not have to keep an eye on you all of the time!
Jenny: I wanted to see if I could get high
Nicola: you are already high!

Nicola: Jen, you have not got your hands in my pockets!

Nicola's dad: What are you doing tonight?
Nicola: I'm currently trying not to watch NCIS and failing by 6 minutes and 43 seconds

Jenny: my tone is like hahahaha mushroom.... I have no strength of tone :(

Jenny: hehe - light-switches ^^

Jenny: Nic, is it bad that instead of 'Chrismas List' I just read 'Chesnut Lust'??

Nicola: nicely put Jen, I am almost 98% sure of what you are talking about

*about searching for the pub the Dun Cow*
Jenny: well, there's a living sheep over there and I have a blow-torch...

*continuation of same conversation*
Jenny: well, we got lost and found the slightly-rare cow....

Jenny: even the nicest things contain heaps of boring

*when writing a text message*
Jenny: "build" it doesn't begin with T... stupid words
Jenny: stupid predictive text didn't have 'walrus' in it

Me: oooh there are quite alot of quotes for this term arn't there
Nicola: yes... you talked alot

Jenny: I'm a saucey person

Jenny: I dont let the fact that I don't know what a word means stand in the way of a perfectly good sentance!

Sam: is there a window in the engineroom?
Me: you don't need windows you can't see

Jen: is nitrogen bad?
Nicola: you're a geologist!
Jan: I don't like air or rocks

Jenny: ... Jolly and Onn.. no wait

Jenny (about Sean): it’s ironic he’s called Sean when he’s got so much hair…

Things of Lostness

2007-11-08T00:40:51Z

I have lost many things... and right now I'm quite impressed by the amount so if anybody comes across these please let me kno ;p

- my mealcard (as always)
- my railcard (but it's ok, I have two because I lost the first one I had - chances are I'll find that one somewhere)
- my bankcard (if I get another one it'll be issue 10, that's how many bank cards I've lost!)
- my ISA book
- my purse - which contained said bankcard and my student card aswell - which therefore is also missing
- my gala library card (which I'm gonna need to pay off the fines for forgetting to take back the dvds on time)
- the little connecting cabley thing that attatched my camera to a computer
- my nice black top - last time I saw it was in London which bodes badly
- one of my nice stripy fingersless gloves which I'd had for about a week
- my magic book of money-outness - for when you lose you bank card
- apparently 7 weeks of time
- my memory - though whether I ever had one to begin with is a debate in itself ;p
- my bank balance... er yes, it just um... vanished

if anybody comments with 'oh yeah you've also lost your mind' they'll get severe proddy doom upon them

^^

Grr Arg stupid subway..

2007-11-08T00:36:45Z

Oki, I had two things to do today - MCR AGM (hopefully to become secretary) and to complete some work before my tutorial tomorrow. I was _originally_ gonna go home this weekend (that's moved to Wednesday) so I'd specifically asked Subway for this weekend off. In my interview infact, and the nice boss lady who shares my name wrote it in the diary.... which is where the problem began. (Her name actually is Jenny Bradley, which is kinda weird and cool at the same time... anyway, I digress...) The diary thing works by you writing when you CAN'T work. And in her writing 'Jenny off' on this weekend whoever writes the roster took that to mean HER to be off instead of me. So I was rung at midday to 'remind' me to come in at 5.... Ofcourse I was clueless, having theoretically booked the night off - but the lady at the other end was adamant my name wasn't in the diary and there was nothing she could do... I had to come in. Luckily a guy was willing to stay on a bit so I could attend atleast the beginning of the MCR AGM. (My that's alot of letters, I got the Secretary position btw ^^. Unfortunatly I must have made a very bad impression since I had to leave just after I got elected ;/).

But it does mean I STILL have to do that report - so quite likely I'm not sleeping tonight -.- (have to see my tutor tomorrow morning, grr).

So yeah, kinda irked. And sleepy *yawn*

Subway, first day

2007-11-08T00:34:43Z

First day at my new job today ^^

So... as a first mistake, don't assume you brought flat black shoes from home. Because it'll turn out you didn't. And the only other shoes I have that are black (and which therefore comply with regs) are black knee-high boots... in short I show up in some shiny but fantastically unpractical footwear ;p

Quite a nice shift though - the guys I worked with were quite cool. One was persian which I thought was kinda ace. Also met a kinda cute guy, nice slip of a Scottish accent, pretty hair, friendly. also, as luck and irony would have it, came from newcastle and mentioned he knows loadsa people on the same road as EBD and quite possibly EBD himself. Eeeexcellent.

I ended up doing the wasging up, which is admittedly potentially quite fun. See there's a weird hose thing to 'rinse' with - you pull it down and water comes out. Unfortunatly it has just two settings; 'off' and 'niagra'. And I'm in no way kidding about the niagra; having one of those blue plastic cover things would have been exceedingly helpful. See, washing many trays and things the water tends to go Everywhere, further accompanied by a fine mist. And you get absolutly soaked, since I almost always managed to get a 180 degree backspray. Also, when reaching over to get more random pots you automatically pull the hose, and since that also tends to turn it on... well long story short I drenched the left half of my body several times. By the end I was quite literally soaking, and quite cold. Unfotunatly, after 8 hours, my feet were also killing :( - that was NOT a fun walk home ;p

*ow*

oh, and er *cold* stupid wet clothes -.-

-.- out of it

2007-11-08T00:33:18Z

It was dark when I left my friends house, quite cold too in that misty autumn kinda way. It may also be worth mentioning I'd had no alcahol of any other kind of mental-fuzziness inducing anything. I was walking from just past the roundabout - the one at the back on the way to Maiden Castle - a roundabout which I've only just discovered hides an extra road round the back. So I was walking along, my mind completly buzzing and a million miles away - not at all concerned with where I was walking. And I looked up and realised I had no idea where I was. I remembered mentally making a note of a graveyard I'd passed in a 'I had no idea that was there' way. And looking back I saw the faint reddy glow of the street lamps and the roundabout - and it occured to me I'd walked down the wrong road without realising. So I shrugged, crossed the road - walked BACK to the roundabout - and realised I had indeed taken the correct road. If it had occured, in my moment of 'where on earth am I' to look FORWARD _down_ the road instead of back, I would have seen the happy lights of the New Inn about 10 metres away. As it was, I was a twit who was completly out of it and managed to get lost along one straight road in the dark -.-

Baaaaaad Start >.

2007-11-08T00:29:32Z

Oki first lecture of term.. and honestly was on time. Maybe like a minute late - but it had already started. So the only seat was at the front (ofcourse) which I didn't realise until I sat down was Right next to the module superviser guy. Who looked at me for a full two seconds before handing me the notes. Prolly wouldn't have been so bad if I made a big commotion when I knocked my ipod on later in the lecture. (Forgot to turn it off in the attempting to inconspicuously sit down). And I completly forgot I had it on me - so it made it worse when she was asking who had the music and I was sitting there clueless -.- Oh and I laughed at something she said. It was vaugly funny, possibly not laugh out loud funny but at that point I was looking for humour - and she picked up on that too. So now known at least by sight to both the module leader person and the lecturer - who I'm almost entirly sure is my department adviser or something. Very very embarressed and couldn't get out the room fast enough at the end *doh*

And STILL no closer to figuring out what I'm doing my dissertation on -,-

Grr file formats

2007-11-08T00:28:25Z

Oki, trying to load up some pictures, so I ask them to save as jpeg. And it agrees with me, nods, smiles, asks me what options I want, saves. And lo' and behold a psd file is born. This makes no sense!! Unless it makes some sense but, immediatly after it made it, it destroyed it in a fit of artistic temprement. Or, conversly, it was so pleased with the quality of it's sense that it became
suspicious that other 'it's' were jealous of it's superior sense that it hid it to keep it from harms way. Whatever the reason, there is no sense here, no sense!!

What does the 'lo in 'lo and behold stand for I wonder... What word was it before it was shortend to 'lo *ponders*

random additions

2007-11-08T00:27:31Z

Right, finished BSG season 1. I need to see season 2 NOW or deaths may occur...

So, using stumble to keep myself occupied... found some excellent links. Brilliant humour site:

the worlds best advertisment for condoms:

http://www.thehumorarchives.com/humor/0001671.html

quite a worrying logo design...

http://www.thehumorarchives.com/humor/0001537.html

the values of punctuation ^^

http://www.thehumorarchives.com/humor/0001575.html

and the best game ever -bar possibly nazca crash...

http://www.grinkle.com/full.php?id=4399

oh and

http://madduck.net/~madduck/misc/thankyou/1000000.swf

which was kinda cute ;p

tuesday (I think)

2007-11-08T00:26:15Z

losing track of time here...

Lyric of the day:

I said I wanna touch the earth
I wanna break it in my hands
I wanna grow something wild and unruly
I wanna sleep on the hard ground
In the comfort of your arms
On a pillow of blue bonnets
In a blanket made of stars

I wanna walk and not run
I wanna skip and not fall
I wanna look at the horizon
And not see a building standing tall
I wanna be the only one
For miles and miles
Except for maybe you
And your simple smile

and quote of the day...

Mal: And Kaylee, what the hell's goin' on in the engine room? Were there monkeys? Some terrifying space monkeys maybe got loose?

***

Found a pretty artist today - who draws pretty pictures. For example

http://www.irishart.com/disp.php?id=5793&PHPSESSID=31b991b43beab6bf23e4aee38eee11d5

and a lovely moonlit cliff one which we now have on our wall but I can't find online.

And speaking of art - waaaay on the way to completing my front cover thingy. *The world stops*. I mean yes, ok, there's many more important things I should be doing. (As opposed to chain watching 4400 and about 5 eps of BSG whilst composing a picture). I have the artistic equivalent of a first draft. There may be many things that change but hey - one day maybe two and this is all done :)

Still need to finish reading those damn books tho ;p And decide what my disertation's actually going to be on now...

May be going back sooner than expected - tho nothing's certain yet. Possibly taking everything back sunday or even late tuesday night. Both hopefullly before Andrea and Emiko go down to the peak district so I can join them :) Still waiting back from college though about how much leaving everything there will cost - and seeing whether my brother and sister are going out with friends on their birthday or not. Still a work in progress.

Emailed off my cv to subway - tried to anyway. If I can work there 3 days a week that'll _seriously_ help my money problems. In some form or another anyway. If the rumours are right and college fees have gone up to £4000 now then I'm well and truly doomed tbh - especially if we have to fund our own way on the fieldtrip his year. Gonna have to speak to somebody I think.

anywho, gonna go do alittle bit of tidying (there's always something that gets messed up), feed the cats etc and try and finish off my poster thingy. Might even squeeze some bsg i there too for good measure :D

ttyl

er.. what day is it? Sunday??

2007-11-08T00:25:04Z

Lyric of the day

Maybe if I hold you close
Baby, we could just let go
Of these things that tie us down
...
And the band played
Songs that we had never heard
But we danced anyway
We never understood the words
We just sang "oh, la la la..."
And we danced anyway

~ dixie chicks

Quote of the day

Daniel: it says..'The universe is infinite.'
Vala: No doubt it's deliberately ironic that we're in an ever decreasing space.

~ stargate (season 9)

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Things of note today... include finding nifty ways to play with my sketches in painter (though haven had enough time to complete anything of Hopelly I'll get some time free this evening and able to do something. Managed to draw quite afew in costas yesterday (brownsugar and vennels were full). Also, played several excellent games of pool (A game I love despite my fluky/awful mix of playing skill). Don't play it anything near like enough henc the mention :)

Bringinga kitten to college has taken on a much more serious edge to it. If I dont find a way to fix it's little bent legs by the end of term itwill have to be PUT DOWN :'( See, it was the runt and the mum is still fairly young (ie small) for a 5-kitten litter. So it got all squashed and it's little paws are all curled up. Fantastically cute but awful for walking - means it'll get sores and things. The vet says he's too small to operate on, and wve tried making little splis out of ribbon bandages and lolipop sticks but it hasn't wor (he chews them off). We need a way to keep his legs straight so he learns how to walk on them properly. *Sigh*

On a happier kitten note, they managed to climb over the suitase we had blocking the spare-room door and are now colonising the hall. They would be venturing to the trecherous world of 'steps' but we moved the suitcase to block that bit so we may ok for a while (it's altle higher). Well ngers crossed anyway.

anywho, there's a chicken in the oven that needs seeing to, and there's still massive amounts of general chores to get done. Including fixing mums computer which has decided not to connect to the network anymore. I swear if there's anymore router problems I'm gonna find several hammers, an axe and possibly a grenade of some kind. If I get thosedone I might be able to get some workdone on my drawings though ^^

ttyl

Howdy

2007-11-08T00:23:12Z

Lyric of the day:

I'm not here for your entertainment
You don't really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it's over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It's just you and your hand tonight

~ pink

Quote of the day:

I can make him walk... he can have sex with his wife again, hug his son again... at least I hope that was the combination he was using - it would be a shame if I cured a paedophile ~ House

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Had a good coupla days. Stopped of to Durham on the way back, got afew job applications and checked out the size of my new room. Theoretically this will allow me to see how much space I've got - and therefore mean I'm not gonna bring too much stuff... yeah well here's hoping. I do tend to pack, er... thoroughly. Currently killing time in Marys computer rooms - where I'm almost entirely sure I'm not meant to be. Was meant to be meeting up with a friend today - but I don't think that's happening so I'm working on other ways to amuse myself :)

I've lost a contact lens - which is very annoying but I should get some new ones through soon (hopefully). think I've got a spare at home (with any luck). Walked past a friend in Durham and it was a full 5 seconds before I saw who it was - by which time ofcourse he'd already said hi and moved on ;s

Doing alittle pic research for the scimag front cover... though apparently I'm at -61 printer credits so printing them out may be unsuccessful :( This is quite impressive since I'm fairly sure I haven't used network printers for about two years - AND also fairly sure my credit back was nice and level when I stopped. Grr.

Oh found an ace link, if you like Firefly anyway ^^ - so cute :)

http://www.profj.org/firefly/luxlucre/sp.html

Anywho yes, so I'm gonna hopefully have alovely afternoon. Print out pics, (hopefully), take them to brownsugar, spend the afternoon sketching for potential amalgamation in to a pretty a3 front-cover... drink hotchocolate - sounds good to meeee

ttyl

hmm.. this goeth not well at all

2007-11-08T00:22:06Z

Tiny hitch in plan... the problem with tidying somebody elses stuff is you're not sure where they want it to go... and when they then try to find something you tidied three months ago this becomes a problem. Especially when you're the kind of person who forgets the day (for example I was convinced yesterday was tuesday to the point of booking the wrong tickets for the train) and what they had for breakfast - and possibly if they even had breakfast... *considers*

Yes also made worse when your house is like ours. My mum's study, for example, is the place all the paper in the world goes to die. She hasn't been in it for a while because she's been ill and all her work stuff around the house has been put in there by default when I've been tidying. I'm looking for 'a bunch of papers about an inch thick in a clear plastic wallet' - which is like looking for a peice of straw of particular dimensions in about 4 thousand haystacks, which have been liberally strewn across a hay field. I have been looking for about 4 hours now and expect to be looking for quite a while yet. The possibility it may not even BE here is becoming more likely and fantastically worrying. And I haven't done ANY of the other stuff I was trying to do. No wait - I've put my washing on. But that's about it -.-

Meh - I'm tired and grumpy, lol. What I need is a specifically attunable paper magnet, or a fantastically acute bloodhound. (Paperhound??)... and/or a serious amount of luck. (Though if I'm asking for luck I prolly should do it within the vicinity of a lottery ticket ^^ (preferably one belonging to me). Anywho... back to the search...

The Daily Jen

2007-11-08T00:17:40Z

Lyric for the day:

You say there is no perfect place, I say I know this is true
We are just learning how to smile
Thats not easy to do ...
You know I live for the day
When you say baby lets just run away

*Bows down to Everclear*

*****

Yeah so I've said it before but this is the closest I have to a diary and the longest I've every kept one. Not that I'm sure this makes interesting reading - but I find it nice to look back sometimes. Tis reassuring in a strange kinda way.

So, yesterday I watched Pulse - the remake. Only just discovered that it's a remake or a Japanese film (arn't they all...) and so therefore this original is the next thing I have to find and see. It's an ok film - jumpy rather than scary - but more applicable to us that most of these teenhorror ones are. Like - most are american - so thas not going to really click. But this one was fairly uniapplicable... (yes, that is now a word) you _could_ see it happening here. It had lots of internet and computery references which I much appreciated, and generally I found this nice to the realism of them film.

I wasn't the scared though - which slightly dissapointed me. My friend next to me, at several points, evoked bats and certain breeds of dog through her screams - so I'll grant that atleast it may be jumpy if nothing else. Maybe it's cos I was trying to comfort her that I didn't get the scare-factor. Maybe it's because through most of the second half I was screaming 'just paint yourself red you fools' in my head. But there was something missing and I couldn't quite place it. All the general right things were there - so it must have been the Secret Ingredient of fear that he forgot to put in. It's strange - cos like I said - you'd think I'd find it more scary since it was one of the few films I could connect with... hmm. Maybe it was a plot thing.... but saying that even the Cave had it's moments. nothing compared to it's older cousin Descent - but it was still occasionally scary... Lol look at me I'm a film critic ;p So anyway - for those who felt note browsing was a good place to pick up film tips I'd say go see it - you will be kinda scared in a White Noise kinda way - but don't expect the Ring kinda fear factor. Who knows maybe that's what you want in a movie ^^ Also, there's Boone (Lost) and Sloane (Alias) in it, for those of you whom said characters would draw you into any cinema. Possibly less with the Sloane but Boone may float your boat, not sure why but hey - it's your boat.

Well, shaking off the film criticness *feels lighter* what else have have I done recently?? Nothing much. Have to do insurance things and READ the 7 books I got out of the library for my dissertation. They've just kinda been sitting there looking at me for a month. Those guys I asked for data haven't emailed me back yet :( But it matters less cos I have NO idea what my dissertation's gonna be on now - except I kno it's not going to be on what I _thought_ it was in July. So Fred (nice guy but scary supervisor) - not looking forward to talking to him next term -.-

Also have... this evening - to create a suitably cool front cover for sf & f magazine. There's a little competition going for the magazine - but it needs to be A3 and colour... At the start of the summer I had all these epic designs of armies and cities and magic - but I haven't done anything like that for far too long, Now I'm settling on a boring montage of characters from all my fav scfi shows - Stargate, Firefly and Smallville and Strwars etc... and some little clips like x-wings and sybols and things. Pencil, scanner and some photoshop/Painter magic to add some pretty colours and merging power. All in this evening - whe i also need to tidy the kitchen, sort out this insurance thing, sort out train times, put more washing on, pack for tomorrow and find mums lost business card.

Boy am I in trouble ;p

ARGHH!

2007-11-08T00:16:31Z

*sob* oki - I hate spiders. I hate spiders ALOT. And one of those huge thin-legged ones (ie the WORST kind) just CRAWLED ONTO MY BED. It then paused and ran for my PILLOWs and paused again... so I ran downstairs to find a hoover and when I came back it was GONE.

So my covers are all pushed against the wall - the way it's set it's a one-in-two chance that it went UNDER my covers.

Hence I'm not sleeping in my bed tonight, and possibly tomorrow night... maybe for the next three weeks until term starts...

*shivers*

For some reason my junkmail thinks my name is Josephine...

2007-11-08T00:14:09Z

Thankgoodness for usb keyboards... my wet keyboard is currently upside-down in the airing cupboard... *crosses fingers*

The google stumble feature is possibly one of the greatest add-ons ever invented. I can easily waste at least five times as many hours when I should be doing other things like my dissertation and researching things by being pulled into the dark, strange and strangly fascinating corners of the internet. Some of the more scary sites I have discovered today include...

http://www.grahamhancock.com/forum/gilligan_moon.php

to which I can only go O.o, similarly

http://www.americansforpurity.org/

... I mean... terrorism???!!! *shakes head*

http://www.devilducky.com/media/50719/

which is brilliant, funny and Very scary if it's true

http://www.sketchswap.com/

which is fun and strangely addictive

-.-

2007-11-08T00:12:58Z

Dammit I've gone and spilt water on my keyboard again... at least I'm prepared this time ^^ well, at least I know that removing the keys is a bad idea. (Yes you can get all the pesky water - but you can't put the space key back nomatter how hard you try, you need three hands and a sonic screwdriver...) In my defese it was my brother who left the glass of water on my comnputer table - but then again I didn't remove it :s To be fair it was a gass of water - tis invisbe!

I hope it's ok.. I mean well the more observant ones amongst you may have noticed that I'm currently typing... I just hope it's not like my phone. See it's one of those not-so-new-but-shiny phones you can stick mp3 tracks onto. So I was listening to it in the bath... (for the record I'm not famed for the supremity of my plans) and knocked it in when I was getting out... It was fine, well, wet. But I stuck it iin the airing cupboard and the little tidemark on the screen went up and up and up - and I turned it back on and it was fine. Ok, so the text I typed into my messages was one hex code lighter than the colour of the background on the phone - but that just made sending messages more fun (especially with predictive text...). But then three weeks in it kinda began to lo.se things, like phone numbers and incoming calls.

Oh shit .I didn't want to be right! etters dt wrk a mre tis ca ed bad

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